Dec 30

I am finding it hard to write these days. I keep opening up the computer and staring at the blank screen hoping the words will come. But weeks of hectic running around, holidays, visiting friends and family and Christmas chaos have wreaked havoc on my mojo. And the less I write the less I seem to have to write. 

But now. Now the holidays are over. Because the hubby’s patience with the dry and brittle Christmas tree starts ticking down the moment after the presents are opened Christmas morning the tree had to come down today. I couldn’t handle the whining anymore! Now the house looks bare and empty. Family is gone. The hubby is back at work. Avery has the week off school which is kind of nice. I’m not quite ready to get back to the normal routine yet.

Putting away all the Christmas decorations was strange today. I was remembering the last time I had taken them all out – two Christmases ago. Last year we were away for 2 weeks over the holidays and we had a small place with no room for a tree so our decorating was minimal. Two years ago I didn’t know that my next two years would involved two new homes in two new cities. I didn’t know how many new places I would see and people I would meet. I’m glad for all I’ve experienced and the friends I’ve made and the adventures my family has had. 

But I can’t help wondering where I will be when I next take the ornaments out of their boxes to decorate a Christmas tree. This same living room? Or somewhere else entirely? There are no definite plans afoot. But there are stirrings. We are waiting for the right times and opportunities to present themselves. I wonder what changes will have happened by this time next year or the year after. Sometimes it’s too overwhelming to think about. Sometimes one day at a time is enough. That’s the best way to get things back to normal after the holidays anyway. Just one day at a time, little by little.